best and worst of 2010

MUSIC:

this year was the year of music, i mean, goddamn, every single album i listened was almost at the top of the chart, so here are the selection of Metal and Non metal albums of the year:


-MONSTER MAGNET: GOD SAYS NO
STONESOUR: STONE SOUR
- STONE SOUR: COME WHAT EVER MAY
-MEGADETH: SOFAR SO GOOD SO WHAT?
-MEGADETH: ENDGAME
-MEGADETH: THE SYSTEM HAS FAILED
-BURZUM: BELUS (really great! i enjoyed this album like a child with a jelly jar in his mouth)
-THERAPY?: CROOCKED TIMBER
-BLIND GUARDIAN: SOMEWHERE FAR BEYOND
-FEAR FACTORY: MECHANIZE
-ARCH ENEMY: THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL
-REVOLTING COCKS: GOT COCK? (  few songs from their last album, sex-o-olympico: hookerbot3000, touchscreen and i'm not gay)
-KMFDM: WURST
-KITTIE: SPIT

NONE METAL:

-HOW TO DESTROY ANGELS: (EP) (NIN in a female format, yaaaaay)
-ATMOSPHERE: WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS YOU PAINT THAT SHIT GOLD
-FORTMINOR:  THE RISING TIED
-QUEENS OF THE STONE AGE: SONGS FOR THE DEF
-ESKMO: ESKMO
-LADYTRON: WITCHING HOUR
-LADYTRON: VELOCIFERO
-TERMIE: MISERY IN MOTION

MOST ANTICIPATING ALBUMS YET TO BE LISTENED IN 2011:

-PORTISHEAD: DUMMY
-THE PRODIGY
and many to come

SOUND TRACK OF THE YEAR:

-OST THE SOCIAL NETWORK ( i haven't listened to it yet, but i know it's awesome because it's resnor)

BEST MUSICAL ARTIST/ PERSON:

-TRENT REZNOR (yep, he proved that not only he can make other bands, but he still has his genious in instrumental music too)

-LADY GAGA: (surpriiiise, but truly, she's an inspiration for us artists and a real one, she knows her job as an artist and entertainer, let's hope she doesn't turn into a whore britney and others did)

MOVIES:

uh, i don't really know, i guess... um...

BATMAN: THE DARK KNIGHT
SHUTTER ISLAND
A SERIOUS MAN
KICKASS
PI
WATCHMEN
PERSPOLIS

GAMES:
HALO 1 (and that's all the game i finished this year lol)

BEST PEOPLE OF THE YEAR:
Pariya: for being undrestanding and a good friend
Hana: always is and always will be
MAHSA:  for being a great competitor
HAMED: for  finally choosing to follow his dream ( best of wishes dude)

WORST PEOPLE OF THE YEAR:

doctor.Saeed Zohari: THE FUCKER JUST DOESN;T KNOW WHAT TO TEACH AND HE;S GOING TO FAIL US ALL
Maryam: once again, this person has proved herself as an arrogant bitch, congrats.

LIFE:
WORST EVENT: mom and dad divorcing, selling the house
BEST EVENTS: yes, events,  i got excused from military service, thanks to my mom and dad's divorce...
i learned to become a better person and and grow up, and become better and change in many ways. i'm not an ass anymore, and finally, daring to make relations, atlast.

WORST MISTAKE: Getting in relation with paria, although it tought me a lot about relation and how i should be with some one. not caring enough for her and almost being an ass to her. i'm sorry

BEST DAY : 2 weeks ago, thursday night, finally revealing my true love to Hana, and getting in a relation ship purely out of love, yes it was the most romantic, most beatutiful day containing its own events in my life,
it was the sweetest moment ever. i worship her.

MOMENT OF CRYING: i guess the moment hana held my hand and said she loves me, i just wanted to burst from joy... and for the painward crying, i guess the pressured i had when mom and dad got into fights.

MOMENT OF LAUGHS: starting to love my job, and starting to change,being with Hana,  being with friends and every stupid game i made with Hamed, great days.

CURRENT GOAL IN LIFE: making relations in my job, improving as a designer and set the stage for a vast ground to gain a knowledge and achivement in design, (i've just started the very first steps) and being a better person for my own and others sake,  challenge myself, push myself harder, fight for more and gain success.

ok, i guess that wraps it up right?

.DESPAIR.

so the new semister has started,  I have walked the first step into the final year of my bachelor education.

and yet a shade of doubt is upon me, covering the sun from my eyes, even more than before, the more i think what am i going to do with this? and the noneexisting answers that showup and more questions are raised...

suppose i finish this... what next? what's the next big thing?  maybe i'll go to canada, but then what? am i fit to survive amoung all the smart people there? can i outrun my competitors? can i overcome the great financial needs that will sit on my back?  can i find a job?

speaking of job! industrial design is the 37th greatest job in the top 100 jobs in the world... yet the job market is so low, that you have to  be either so at the top of the game, or you end up nothing, there is no middle ground in this thing...  and yet i feel like a blinded man reaching for  a dream that he can never have...

what is the next big thing? i make my own DESIGN FRAME,  but with what money? who's gonna rent a place? whos gonna pay for it and the advertisement? how am i going to hire people? why should they work for me? how am i going to pay them?  how is it even possible?

am i doing the best that i can? I SURE AS HELL AM NOT! I'M JUST DOING GOOD WORK AND THAT'S IT...

what do you do when you think that you're so creative and design something and grow so fund of it that think this is a goddamn breakthrough, and the next minute you'll find the exact thing on the first page of google images?  how sad is that? that everything you think is great and yours, someone else has done it somewhere else?

what do you do when you're in a relation that is all shrouded with doubts and guilt? 

what do you do, that even when you try as hard to forget things and getalong the thoughts keep hunting you?

what do you do when you realize that you only have a handful of people around you who really care about you.. but that is if they find time, and their not tired of your yappings?

what do you do when you see your other friends are growing distant  from you because you think they don't desrve your friedship?

what do you do when all your brain activities and ideals spin around the negative theories which you consider not only good and helpful but also consider it a realist view on things....

i was talking to a friend of mine , and i was saying how i feel about the world, and that life means battle and survival of the fittest... and if you fail to win you'll be erased. i kept saying that we're like worms in a sea of filth that keep swiming to reach the dry lands and to survive in hope of evolution and growing feet and become frogs to leap the boundries...and that we humans will never reach our goal because we don't follow a natural order of things...

the next thing i heard was that i'm bullshiting and said that she had nothing to say anymore... 

you know why? because out of every 10 calls i kept saying the same thing for the last 9 times, and the more she tried to help to change my view the less it worked. so she just gave up and said the hell with it... you're an asshole! you make life so hard on yourself, the great things never bother you, but the smallest stuff  cripple you so bad that you go nuts. you think so much, just go with the flow moron.

not every friend tell you these stuff that can actually make you think.. i'm tankful of that. 

but yet i keep  thinking.

what do you do when you hate your projects? when you want to adapt and try to love'em and yet the tutur does something that makes you even hate it more... when you have brought all he has asked of you and when you want to present it, he doesn't give a slightest shit about all the efforts that you've done?

and keeps talking with some other guy because he likes him more?

what do you do when your tutor keeps humiliating you without even knowing you? because he thinks that he's the god all mighty of all and he knows so much and refuses to share a spark of his holiness to you because he thinks you're unworthy?

what do you do when you fail others...

what do you do when the biggest chance is right infront of you and you don't bother to take it seriously?

WHAT DO YOU DO?

JUST WHAT THE HELL DO YOU DO TO MAKE LIFE INTERESTING FOR YOURSELF?

WHY DO SOME OF US THINK TOO MUCH TO BECOME SO SAD AND BROKEN?

WHY IS IT THAT SOME OF US JUST CAN'T ENJOY OUR LIVES?

the guide of Hami, design

the guide of hami, created by farbod mahboub. i just revamped the old man. make him  a bit more if an old man who knows something than an old rad hippie fard.

Hami design

SO i think i'm back, or am i? this is a new design of Hami , protector of earth, created by Farbod Mahboub.

blogspot has updated since i got hacked.